behind these hazel eyes

crowncity

kristine stratton.

ooc contact: here or aim >> sapphiremelodies
ic contact: aim >> somehowshifted

leave a comment if you want to start a storyline, thread/log, plot, or even just to say hi!






comments screened.

My therapist says I should make New Year's resolutions. Have any of you broken yours yet? ;)

For the record, I've made a few. One of them, obviously, is using this more, so here I am. Ta-da. Haven't really missed much since my life isn't that exciting. Other than reading The Hunger Games this break and promptly finishing in about 48 hours. My brother says his girlfriend told him he looks like Peeta Mellark and to me, that's weird since he's my new imaginary boyfriend. Awkward.

Any other good resolutions? Watching more TV? Spending more time on schoolwork? Being a better worker at work? Nah, these weren't any of mine either, if you're wondering.

In all seriousness, I'm glad for this break from school. I miss my family when I don't see them and it's good to be home for a while. I love Charlotte, though, I do. But sometimes it's just easier being home, you know?

It's officially Christmas! Not only does that mean lots and lots and lots (and I do mean lots, did I mention lots?) of cookie making, there's also about the same amount of new Christmas music in our store. The Carpenters will always define Christmas for me, though. They were my parents' favorites and they are the first memory I have of Christmas.

But going backwards. I haven't updated this thing in a long time since I've been busy and boring, no one cares about my life, who am I kidding?. Thanksgiving was nice. I went home, got to see my little cousin who is now crawling all over the place and pulling himself up on couches and stuff, got to see the whole family and ate a bunch of good food. Didn't do Black Friday because I get incredibly claustrophobic - no discount is worth that. I'm back in Charlotte, though. It's okay - the semester will be done soon and I can spend a few weeks at home, catching up with my family and getting ready for Ethan's first Christmas. :)

Now a pressing question. What's your favorite Christmas song?

Life has been a bit rough. Between school, work, and having my family crash my apartment for a lot longer than I thought they would, it's been hectic. I've also been going back and forth between here and Elizabeth City, trying to help out with the house. We got flooded, but it wasn't too bad and we were able to save a lot of stuff, so, you know... we're okay, I guess. It's just been hard, especially with Danielle and I living here and them being there... I feel almost guilty, in a way, that I'm not there. I don't know. I know I can't control the weather, but I can't help it.

I just need a weekend to chill, to listen to all this good music I'm coming across and read a book or something. Life is so overwhelming right now and I hate it.

( Private )

So, after only my first week of class, my aunt and uncle let me know that they've decided they're going to come visit this weekend. Which is nice, seeing as they don't usually come down here. The reason they're coming out, though, is because Hurricane Irene is coming and they thought it best to evacuate especially since they have a baby. When Hurricane Isabel came through (I was little then), I remember the house got flooded and it was pretty rough; we had to stay at a shelter for a few weeks. Irene is supposed to be stronger than that, but we also did some hurricane strengthening to our house, so... I'm crossing my fingers. They are putting sandbags and stuff around the house, and maybe if it was just them, they might have stayed and roughed it out, but with Baby E around, things get a little more complicated. (But we love him.)

( Private )

I can't believe the summer is almost over. I feel like it just started! Then again, I have been working a lot this summer. I only have a few more weeks until school starts again, boo. :( That also means I only have a few more weeks left working with Holly and her company. Holly, thanks for giving me a chance! I have some time off over the holidays so I can help out then, I think, too... that is if you need my help.

Before summer is done, though, I think I need to go home. I haven't seen Baby E in a while and he's almost six months old now. Can you believe that? He's getting so big. He needs some cuddle time with his favorite cousin.

In other news, we can't seem to keep Amy Winehouse's music in stock at the store. The more I listen to it, the more sad I am about what happened to her. It always seems like the most promising ones go first which means I'll probably live to be some bitter old woman. Whee.

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

I had a great time in California. The weather was beautiful and it was just amazing to be there. I'm glad Danielle got to come with me to enjoy it.

Now that it's summer, I'm thinking of putting streaks in my hair. Blue or pink? It's always easier to pull it off during the summer months than it is when I'm in school.

( private )

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!

In two days, I will be in sunny Southern California. Home of awesome beaches, the best hamburgers I've ever had, my parents' graves, and my brother (and grandparents!). I can't wait to get out there, but I really also can't wait to see Matt. It has been way too long.

Danielle is coming with me, too. We may or may not have plans to have delicious cocktails of our own. Erm. I mean. We're going to go to Disneyland and have lots of fun.

Hope everyone has a great Fourth of July here in Charlotte. I'll be in Newport Beach if you're all wondering.

It's been a good month in the music world. Lots of new albums coming out, as well as singles, so lots of new music for me to discover. That's always a good thing.

I can't believe I actually survived my freshman year of college. It's a good feeling. I kind of have the hang of it now, although I'm still not quite sure where I want to go with my degree. Most people who major in psychology end up being therapists or something, and I'm... definitely not therapist material, so I don't know. I guess I have three years to decide, though.

My birthday came and went. I'm nineteen now. One year closer to being twenty, and one year closer to being able to drink legally. Not that I drink illegally or anything.

I've decided to stay in Charlotte for the summer. With extended breaks in between, of course. I'm headed out to California in a few weeks to see my brother, and that is super exciting! I miss him, and I haven't been out there in ages. (I have some family out there.) Something to look forward to. Plus, baby E is going to be almost three months old and I need to spend some decent quality time with him so he doesn't think I'm a stranger.

( Private )

A list of random things that have occurred to me lately:

-In 20 days, I will be 19.
-I really need to get out more.
-Food Network can't be a good thing for me, can it?
-I kind of want one of those headpiece things that Brits wear to weddings. Maybe I should learn how to make one.
-I have no idea what I'm doing this summer. Ideas, anyone?

( private )

So I don't know who watches Dancing with the Stars, but this week is classical week, and there's this violinist that's been doing a bunch of solos, and it makes me miss my brother a lot. And Grady, who I haven't seen in a while. :[ He's out there in L.A., playing with one of the big orchestras out there. Matt is the best big brother ever, jsyk. I think he should have been the one on TV.

Yeah. Just thought I'd throw that out there. It's probably the most interesting thing I'll have to say all week.

What do you do when one of your professors walks into your workplace? Better yet, what if said professor strikes up a conversation with you, while the whole time you're absolutely positive he won't recognize you because hey, you never mentioned you were taking any of his classes?

What if you stammer like a fool because you're just awkward like that, and then what if he tells you he remembers your face from his class?

Oh well, at least he still bought something.

Just got back home. I went home this weekend (up to Elizabeth City - it's near the coast, not too far from the Virginia border). My aunt is having her baby soon and we had a baby shower for her! It was a little crazy driving with all the snow and stuff but at least it's not horrible anymore.

I'm kind of excited at the prospect of a baby brother. Well -- well, let me explain. My aunt is pretty much my mom, she's been my mom pretty much since I was little. So even though technically her baby is going to be my cousin, it's pretty much like he's going to be my little brother. Which is awesome, because I only had a big brother and even though I love my big brother... it's different, you know? (And just in case you were wondering, my aunt is Danielle's stepmom; she's married to Danielle's dad. So you figure out how we're related.) She's due in March, so I hope everything goes well and I won't have to rush up early in the middle of projects to meet Ethan (that's what they decided to name him). I kind of worry about her but I know she's in good hands.

Other than that, not much to report. I did kind of miss part of the Superbowl, but I don't really care about football anyway. I heard the commercials weren't that great, either, so I guess I didn't miss much, then? Oh well.

So yeah, that's my life.

So guess who woke up early to go to school and found out it was canceled today?

Yeah.

Oh well. I wasn't looking forward to going out in the snow anyway. -_- Back to sleep, maybe.

I like Thanksgiving. You get to eat, you get to see your family, and it puts life into perspective for you. I mean, there are challenges in my life that suck, but at least I have a loving and supportive family (including the best roommate/sister from another mister I could ever ask for!), the opportunity to go to college, and have things work out, for the most part, with transitioning to life in Charlotte. Coming home is kind of weird though, because it feels like in some ways I never left, and in other ways it's so different. My aunt is getting big now (she's having a baby in March) and I'm kind of sad I'm missing out on that. :/

Hope you are all having a great holiday weekend!

( here i am, once again / i'm torn into pieces / can't deny it, can't pretend / broken up, deep inside / but you won't get to see the tears i cry / behind these hazel eyes )